Overloaded

Today is my day off, and I'm working at the clinic. Actually, my sisters are doing the same thing. I interviewed three Physician Assistants within the last two weeks, and I don't think any of them would join us.

The first one was an East Indian newly graduated girl. She seemed OK, but she was asking for so many things when she didn't have any leverage to do that.

The second one was the first one's classmate, I found out later. She was Hispanic. This suits my clinic very well. She is from Cuba. She was too confident. I've been a doctor for 16 years, and the only thing I'm confident about is the fact that I don't know much. I have seen enough to feel good that I know I don't know much. Here she is, a fresh-out-of-the-boat physician assistant, being cocky.

The third one came yesterday. He was a 65 y.o. Caucasian. He used to be a pharmacist and switched to become a PA since 20 years ago. His resume showed he last worked 2 years ago. Something didn't quite fit, so I checked his record. It turned out that his pharmacy license was suspended for 5 years due to drug addiction.

I am a person who believes in second chance because I myself have been given second chances. I was very hesitant, but I was still open-minded. I thought to myself that if he were nice and worked hard, then I would be willing to hire him since he hasn't had any issue working as a PA.

So, I interviewed him. He didn't come across as a friendly person. He told me he had a stroke when I asked him why he has not been working since two years ago. But, later, he told me he's been working part-time for a neurologist whose name he didn't list on his resume. Then, I asked him why he switched from being a pharmacist to being a physician assistant. I was looking for him to be honest. Unfortunately, he said in an indifferent manner: "It's boring." I have three siblings who are pharmacists, and they have to work so hard they have no time to be bored. I then asked him if he had any more question for me. He said: "When do I start?"

Off I go, looking for more PAs.

Now, I have to go back to my paperwork.

On a better note, I will get to see Jim tomorrow night.

Nose Picking

People are picking noses left and right. With the presence of the allergy season, I don't think there are anyone who doesn't do it. Even the Queen of England does it. Jim took these pictures. He told me she even looked at it afterward. He said he wasn't sure what she did with it, though.

Today, there was a patient who took his two sons in to see me. For the whole time he was in the exam room, he repeatedly picked his nose. Right in front of me! How gross! Why would you do that when you know someone is right there looking at you? How many times do you have to pick your nose? If you have to, shouldn't you aim it so that you could do it in one shot? Why do you have to look at what you got? Don't tell me you are going to taste it the moment I turn away.

I'm all gross out, now...LOL. This actually did happen.

This is what Jim and I did before he left for the UK.

waiting...

It's 1:55 am. It's almost time for Jim to wake up. I want to text him "Good Morning!" and a big capitalized "I LOVE U!" I miss him very much.

With the time difference between here and the UK and my busy work schedule, it's been difficult for us to talk. From the moment I step into my clinic, I see patients non-stop until it's too late to talk to Jim.

I hope he's having a good time over there. I hope the British are treating him well.

I'm here waiting for his hugs.....

My Boyfriend is Leaving...

Tomorrow, early in the morning, Jim will be on his way to the UK. For two very long weeks, I will very much miss him. I want him to know that when he looks down from the plane,
he'll feel the love I'm sending to him from below. One day, we'll be on the plane together.

I'm working on our vacation. I hope it would be next year some time. I won't be able to take a vacation unless I have three PAs. The new one is very nice and works hard. She's still not good but has good potentials. We'll have another one coming for an interview on Tuesday. Crossing my fingers! If it worked out, I'll just have to look for one more. Then, my life would be less hectic. I'm praying.

Meanwhile, my sisters and I will continue to be slaves to our jobs...Grrr.

Back to Jim, I hope his boss will give him some free time to explore the city. I will miss his morning texts. I will miss his texts throughout my work day. I will miss our good night talks. With the different time zones, I don't want him to have to worry about me.

I love you, Jim.

A Cookie Shared

Jim and I went to Starbucks this evening before we had dinner. I had my coffee; he had his. I like oatmeal raisin cookies. So, I got a big one for myself. Jim didn't want any. We sat at a small table next to the window. I shared the cookie with Jim. Jim asked me if we looked gay. A White guy and an Asian guy sharing a cookie...how much more gay can it get? :D

We didn't look gay, but we looked gay... :))). I really enjoyed that moment, though.

We didn't plan it. It just happened that way. I didn't think much about it. But, now, when I think about it, it was a sweet moment.

A simple, sweet moment like sharing a cookie with someone you love might be viewed as something repulsive by some others. Isn't that a shame?

I Need A Break

I've had a hard week at work. Actually, it's been a few months worth of hard work. Actually, it's been a few years worth of hard work. It's just that this week has been harder. I'm not yet burnt out. I'm very resilient. But, I might break soon if this persists. Well, probably not, but I do wish to have some relaxing time. One of our two PAs decided to switch gear and enter a specialty. The other one was new but had more potential than this one. However, she had some poor work ethics and had shown to be a potential liability. So, I quickly let her go. This Monday, we'll have a new one that seems very nice and willing to appreciate team-work. Hopefully, it will work out. I need another one. The demand for PAs in this area is so high that it's very difficult to get a good PA. It's so difficult that I have decided to hire an extra one; that would make 3 PAs. Still, I could not hire them. Most of our patients are indigent, new immigrants, Hispanics, Asians, some Blacks, and very few Whites. This fact does not attract physicians or physician assistants so much if they just quickly glance at our practice. In reality, it's a very worthwhile place to work. The salary and benefits are good. The patients are usually very nice. The staff are helpful and nice. Especially, the boss is extremely nice...:D. Yet, I'm still working so hard. I am praying for two nice PAs to come my way. Yes. God, please bring me two more. I'm so tired I'm not funny any more.

Sigh...

Meanwhile, Jim asked me to go clothe shopping with him later today to prepare for his new job. This should be interesting...:D An Asian guy and a White guy clothe shopping together. How gay can it be? LOL...One good thing is that I'm no longer afraid that people might notice us. Well, unless there'd be some Vietnamese around. They love to gossip. Grrr.

Well, it will be a good break. I will have to go back to my paperwork tonight. I haven't done any paperwork this morning. I went to church, had lunch, vacuumed part of the house, and it's already 2:45pm.

2nd shower now...

Gay Men Don't Turn Masculine When They Get Married.

I have read several blogs and got the general idea that a lot of gay married men or gay ex-married men or long-term "bi" men (who name themselves "bi" just because they are married to a woman) downplay the never-married, gay men as often be more feminine, childish, lacking responsibilities as compared to them.

Why do they even think that way? People a different. There are all types of people in every group. Even in your own immediate family, our siblings are different from us. In my family, my two younger sisters and I have been more responsible toward our parents than my five other married siblings. Does that make us better children than the others? No.

Some single gay men are very responsible. Some are less. Just like with the gay married men. If I said that single gay men are more responsible than gay married men because they refuse to hurt another human being by marrying a woman to shield their sexuality, would that make me sound stupid? YES!

And, to say that gay married men, as compared to single men, are more masculine and less childish is just like saying Asian men are bottoms. Hell, try reading the blogs by married gay and bi men, you'll see how feminine these people can get. It's a huge display of feminine qualities. Do I think it's bad? NO. To each his own. Do I picture some of them as sassy feminine men? Sometimes. Do I think they are bad people because of that? NO. To each his own.

Just because some gay men choose not to get married, it does not mean they are immature, irresponsible, lack of life experience, or feminine. It could be because they are mature, responsible and have enough sense in themselves to choose not to get married. I bet you a lot of those naked male pictures posted by the gay/bi married men are of single gay men. Do I see people drooling over them? YES. My sister has a friend who is as feminine as one can get, but he is actively seeking to get married. He doesn't think he's gay. I'm waiting to see if suddenly he'll turn masculine once he gets married.

All that said, to some gay married or ex-married men out there who are seeking love, be a little open-minded. You might be surprised that the best person that comes along your way might be one who has been single.